Elmo's world.

Sunday, April 30, 2006

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how long has it been since i last blog??? think going to be a month?? how long..but how..my life is almost the same everyday rite...

yesterday i went interview for the post of air stewardess by SIA and was kana kick out.. bleah... the queue for the interview was really long man..it can really fight with the Singapore Idol de..ha.

waited for about an hour plus before i get into the 1st round of interview..it was actually a grp interview of about 9 or 10 people with 2 interviewer in each room.... this interviewer simply ask us to introduce ourselves..after all of us have done that, we were all asked to leave the room and wait for our result....maybe i was not good enough and i got kicked out.. was pretty sad.....

on my way to the mrt station..dunno why but really could feel the sadness and tear almost trickling down.......thoughts just came upon me... suddenly feel tat no matter how hard i try.. things can never go my way...

all the way frm suntec to orchard and back to work.......my mind just keep on working...... thinking and thinking what has gone wrong.... am i fated not to study...am i fated not to be a stewardess..am i fated to stay in the co for as long as it takes...i dunno.. really dunno..

wat i have written is really crap............i feel so lost........ so difficult holding back tear once again. at last... got the chance to release it when i got home....... it was so difficult to sleep........ that i tried reading the paper....till i started tearing back to sleep.......................

just wondering...is life really that difficult?? or i think that its too difficult?? but i still gotta thank my frens who tried comforting me..........i really appreciate that............ =)

Sunday, April 09, 2006

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*sigh* so much things to pay off..... so much things to do... yet.. i have no more money liaO. *sob* *sob*.....

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im still stress.... woke up with a huge headache.. really have the urge to bang myself against the wall.. oh man...

still as stress as ever....... when can all this stop.. its torturing me...... lost count of the sleepless nite u i have............

pls...... give me a shot in my head.. its killing me... dammnit...

Friday, April 07, 2006

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headache headache...............................................

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where are you??? just when i need you???

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have u realize? that at certain point in your life you really wanted to give up? you lose hope? you feel helpless? have you realize at certain junction of life you are lost? have you at certain time broke down and cry? have you? have you have endless of sleepless nite??? if you don't.. congrate... if you do.. i would say welcome to my life............................

im having third nite of sleepless nite.... peps out there reading this.. feel free to send me watever msgs u have.....

having a bad headache today..mite be due to sleepless nite.. mite be stress... mite walking too much under the hot sun.. must be the problem my brain pounding on.. watever it is.... i can't take it anymore....

i think my PUB bill for this month must be pretty high huh? been leaking water this few nites.. gotta find a plummber to fix it for me ya.. watever it is.........

i have come to the point when im tired.......... im really tired.... im too stress... i need a break........ watever..............it doesn't matter anymore.... coz i dun care....it doesn't make a difference anyway....

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im waiting for the call of my boss to ask me start work.. got a job in the company of COACH.. but will work under another brand called the Mercedes Benz.... while waiting for my outcome from the local uni... seems like my chances of getting in is very slim and i really have to start look for alternaltives... seems tat finding job is rather easy..but a suitable one will take times... any way.. i will be working in the transit of Changi Airport with rotating shifts starting from 6am to midnight or even 1am.. but transport will be provided for the 1st and the last shift.....

yesterday i just went to renew my membership with CDC.. damn have to pay additional $150+... people out there like me whose membership has expired... please renew it within one month for an extention of 6mths... if not you will end up like me...

right now i have also book the Final Theory Test schedule on 15 May.... *sigh* yesterday had to top up only $200 into my pathetic account... man.. when can i get pay.. settle all my stuffs... save some money to learn driving.. guess if i have no money again to pay for the lesson, i will have to quit learning...

anyway... im giving tuition to 2 korean kids daily for this month for a total of 12 lessons... currently this 2 kids are having school vacation, so i had to go down everyday for this 2 weeks.. but seem like the pay is not bad with $300... teaching only English... they are only 10 and 9 years old... but they are so cute and really naughty..... whenever i ask them to do english they will tell me that they are sleepy.. hahah....so typical rite... bleah... anyway.. im pretty lucky to get a tuition job.. it will help me to add on to my monthly income ba...

going for an interview with NIE later... hope that even if i can't get into uni..at least a teacher will be nice ba.. wahhha....anyway..wish me luck ba..!!!

Sunday, April 02, 2006

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now is qing ming.. so had to wake up early to pai my grandpa at Bishan... woke up at ard 6 plus.. coz my grandma wanted to be there early..and there is also less crowd..

was pretty crowded as time pass.. ard 9 plus can already see the crowd coming in.. but by then we are already on our way out..

on the way to the bus stop.. my grandma asked abt my uni application.. she was pretty shock when my mummy told her that my chance will be pretty slim.. as she knows that yun has got both uni acceptance letter..

wat if i really got rejected??? i also dunno what to do.. still remb the words of my grandpa... he will really be disappointed when he know i get rejected...

when i visit him today.. i can feel that my tears is going to roll down my cheek uncontrollably.. but i just blink it away... *sigh* guess that i cannot do anything.. just have to wait and see.. mean time just get a job ba....

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OMG how time flies... a year has gone... and i am a year older liao... and it also pass so fast that the day has ended... yesterday really doesn't feel like my birthday.. dunno why.. haha.. feel like just another normal day....

i woke up at abt 7+ to meet bin bin for breakfast at HV Market... was really surprise to see 11 new messages.... have 3 MMS from yun and my uncle... wishing me happy birthday... thX people.. im so touched that u guys still remb my birthday... got Si Ming, Juan, Kitt, Andy, Yun, my uncle, my 'brother' ric, Hui aka my kani, Eve, Juan and my dear ANNA... lotsa thX pple.....

i reach ard 9 plus at the HV market... realize that the store that bin bin wanted to eat wasn't opened.. so message him.... waited for him to arrive before we decided to go Breko again for breakfast.. i had my light fast with hot milk while he had his brekfast with caramel latte.. we slack awhile before heading for Cold Storage.. where he helped his mum to buy some limes and i got a cranberry juice.. hee...

from there we took a cab to his house..... suppose to meet eve & clarice at 12.30pm outside Heeren but me & bin bin was super late.. ended up meeting them at Ichiban @ Wisma ard 1.10pm... realize that the food at Ichiban standard is only average compared to Sushi Tei and Sakae.. the food variety there was not really much....

but ming is the last person to reach. haha... she came with Cherry.. both of them will go to Chinatown after the lunch to make some arrangement with the agency for the HK trip.. know wat.. they are going to HK with Thong also.. wow... win liao... heee...

we parted at abt 3plus.. then we 1st headed to LV boutique.. coz eve & clarice wanted to go in there to have a look. where eve saw her bf's friend there with his family.... heard that the guy is pretty rich.. but after knowing the way he spend the money.. its really terrible.. sooner or later all his parent's money will be gone down to the drain.... so sad..

after tat we went to Kino.. coz i have my $40 voucher expire yesterday.. so i just used it to buy my photo albums.. and i even reserve the refill to be collect next week...

finally took my cheque from Vicki... so happy..coz was broke liao.. Oops... then bought sushi for my family and collect my cake at Taka before heading home....

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hmmm... though it wasn't a really special days.. but i still enjoy myself.... thX everyone who make this day happen..... *MuacK*

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Mango Moose (watever its call) from BakerZin... *yum*